Random update and downdate

So I've been postponing blogging for quite some time now. I simply got caught up in other hobbies lately, like scrapbooking, sewing, and gaming.

Yes, gaming! Believe it or not, I used to be quite the gamer - for the easy, shmeezy shtuff, like Tetris, Bust-a-move, and Mario. I mean, who wasn't? And then I tried out Zelda and those fighting games like Mortal Kombat. And then I hit college, so gaming went on a big halt...until last year, when I was on maternity leave. Good ol' Nintendo beats the new, mind-boggling, tech-driven game consoles and their games, right? Depends. I have to admit, those no-nonsense games really get you at the edge of your seat..and time. So if you start, be ready to either throw in the towel pretty quick or be addicted for a good awhile.

So, I speak of gaming and maternity leave because there's something I want to stress. Being on maternity leave is no walk in the park. Some people think that while you're on it (or being a stay-at-home mom), that it's vacation time. FYI, it was a blur of changing, feeding, and being in a zombie-like state 24/7. Imagine what it's like for the hubby, who doesn't get paternity leave because he has a business to run. So yes, I sucked it up most of the time to tend to the babe, while the hubster was tired from work. (I was also recovering from popping out an 8-lb baby, and I got a C-section, which takes even longer, more energy and more healing to recover.) But you bet your buttons I didn't let him milk his "I had to work all day" shpeel too much! To those who plan on babies, don't ever EVER let your man (or whoever has to keep working while the other stays home) use that excuse, because they need to know that you've been working your arse off 24/7, and NOT just 8-10 hour days. You see, when you work, you get the luxury of coffee/internet/phone/lunch breaks - and breathing at the same time. As for being home with a newborn, you're holding your breath he doesn't wake up too quick when he's napping while you nap/relax/get things done.

I can't reiterate more do NOT have kiddos if you are not willing to sacrifice your life full of freedom, energy, and outside society. I'm sorry I make it sound like a terrible thing to be a mother, but plenty of studies have shown that the top thing parents miss most about pre-baby life was freedom - and we fall into that majority. Even while I work, I'm thinking about what needs to be done for him. So yes, you can say work is my break from the hustle and bustle of being a mama.

The good news is once the baby passes the stage of being an immobile little squirt who cries and feeds day in and day out, you are ever so glad you had him. All the things you sacrificed before and for the rest of your life for this being may not always seem worth it but definitely will be filled with an unimagineable love that only a parent can feel - something simply magical to be succumbed in. That in itself is far beyond a simple word as worth.